Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 10:31 PM
20th Novmember 2009I finally request for a 2 weeks break. I really need it. I need to breathe. I am stress! I am not happy. You left without a word after i proposal for a 2 weeks break. I just wanna take a break from everything. To have a relaxed mind. I need time for myself too. If i have the time,i will also wish to accompany you. The fact is i doesn't. All i can do/say is "I am sorry. i am really sorry dear. believe or not, i tried my best to be a ideal gf"
You cried. Seeing you in such a state, hurting you; is one of the most painful moment in my life. Luckily, we manage to settle everything; make peace. I am glad we are back to original again. Perhaps, arguement is need once every few months to know each other better?
I am not angry. Not at all. I am just upset. After all you are not as understanding as what you always said. You wouldn't know how i feel. because you are not in my shoe. I doesn't blame you. Because i can't experience what are going through. To you,I am just an example of a bad girlfriend. I am not a typical girlfriend who always accompany and stick to her bf. But why must i be like them?Why can't i just be myself? i really don't understand.
I have my own way of loving you. perhaps, you can't feel it. I just want you to love me as who i am and don't put me into comparison. Does a girl who accompany her bf 23hrs a day and accompany another bf using that 1 and only hour considered a good gf? Does a girl who accompany her bf only 23hours a week but spend the rest of her time missing and thinking about her bf considered a bad gf? I don't know. everyone has their own view. Perhaps, that is why LOVE is complicated. There will never be an answer.....
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