Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 1:04 AM
10th Jan 2010 IIIt's 5pm right now. At your house. Just reached. Got bean and almond curb. I am in your room and you are in the living room watching TV. Since i stepped in till now, not much words from you. Waiting for me to coax you? hahaha...initially wanted to go st joseph and gym today. But decided to put off everything and head to your house instead. I kind of miss you. Partly also because elsa can have a ride to shawn's house too. I think i am feeling how you felt. Whenever we quarrel, you will feel like meeting me even more. Same goes to me. I am starting to have such feeling as well. Is that really what love is? Yesterday while arguing to you over the phone, tears did threaten to flow down. But i swallowed in down. Because i am with my family. Honestly, this is the first relationship that tears was at the brim when we got into arguement. Normally,only family members will have such impact on me. I guess, i am really in love this time. OPPS! you just entered the room to take your cup! my heart was racing when i heard the door open! i signed out immediately. Luckily this entry was saved as draft!
I am sincerely sorry for my harsh tone last night. But that was not totally my fault too. Although i admit i should be more responsible for this. Haiz, once again i failed the "patience test". I don't know why, but everytime i tried to keep my cool, you will irrate me further. Sending multiple message is one such example.I did tried to ignore you, but i can't. Is it because i care and concern about you? Or are you too long winded?
I don't know whose fault it is everytime we quarrel. I suppose two party does. After all it takes two hands to clap. You are always pushing the fault to yourself. why? I am not asking whose fault it is after all. Most of the time i just want a way out. But you always forget about what you said. You have very short memory. Your promises as well.
arh, now that i am here, really interested to know if your heart is with the tv or me! hahaha....i guess....IS ME!hahhaa..you wanna come in right? but waiting me to make the move to coax you! wahaahaa....kitchen got so many cups, why would you want to come in and take this cup? wahahaha.......joking la, just making wild guesses. =p Now this senario is like...31st Dec 2009. hahaha! we are sitting there watching tv, and you are finding the right time to apologise and coax me. hahaha! now is a role switch! =p how should i coax you then? hahaha...no tiramisu this time. almondcurb can? Hahaha....or should i use you style? Go to the living room...watch show with you, and find the right time to apologise? hahaha....how ar? or should i wait for you to talk to me? but this time is indeed my fault(majority). later i talk to you, you still doesn't have the mood to talk to me how? hahaa......but i guess you wouldn't. You got a much softer heart then me. If i can forgive you everytime, you can too. arh....super sleep right now, almost dozed off....
lalalala......what is the best way? sit beside you and sms you? sounds stupid ya. hmmm....give you a big hug later? let my sincerity and feeling penerate you? but i am feeling very sleepy......will i have the strength to wait till you finish your show? ha, has been feeling very heaty this few days, but not fever..so uncomfortable. Opps...i heard you forwarding the show, finishing soon? zzz....zzzZZZzzz.....*YAWN* hmmm.....come to think, i think hug is most workable on you. hahhaa! hmm...shall see what i can/will do. Keep this updated again! But right now.......you are still watching tv.....what should/can i do? badly need a rest..perhaps i should take a quite nap.
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