Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 6:31 AM
29th July 2010 (II)You're building up your career right now. I really hope that you can do well. Because i am really tired of playing the role of a BF...i feel really insecured. Driving you around, pay for meals and entertainment.....this and that. I admit, i really feel that you are useless at times. At the age of 26...don't even have a few hundred dollar and need to borrow money to pay your last sem school's fees? haiz......I really can't see our future now. Not planning too far, just look at now, every outing,every meals we take...we got to consider our financial.
Next week will be our 1st year anniversary. You decided to go National Museum for dinner. It looks like fine dining and i guess it will be over a hundred dollar? hahaa..I completed a transparent micky and minnie jigsaw before i went into BMT. I just got it framed up 2 days ago. Look special.. after all it's partially handmade, so is the thought that counts. I plan to put it in the car boot on 2nd, after dinner we will drive to take a walk and ask you to help me get something from the boot. When you open up, you will see the present! Eric was telling me that i can put some balloons, so that when you open up, the balloon will fly up. I wanted to do it, but firstly, money restriction. Secondly, don't you think that, that is what you should do on me instead of i doing it to you? It should be the job of a guy! BALLOONSS!!! it's more for girls ba. I thought of baking a cake too, go for baking class. But money constraint again. Haiz..
I don't blame you for not giving me surprises. I chose to believe it's due to money constraint. I understand. But at times, surprise not necessary need much money. It's the thought that counts. For example, last saturday, we actually planned to make breakfast together, but because we went mahjong, the plan was called off. I stayed over at your place, you woke up at 11 plus and you said you "forced" yourself to sleep just because you saw me sleeping too. Can't you prepare lunch for me and i can be surprised or feel fortunate when i wakes up? It definately makes my day much brighter. When you are free on friday night, instead of arguing with me because of boredom,thinking of where to go and thinking of how bored you can be, can't you think of what you can do as a gift for me? handmade stuff like what ming huat and eric does? Surprise your gf by picking up her after work or outing? This kind of surprise is small but it definately makes me feel fortunate to have such a sweet bf. I am not comparing...you have your good points too.
To sum up this entry and also to remind myself, For everything i do, i do it willingly and shall not ask for any return. So long as you are happy, i am fine. Loving someone, you want him or her to be happy right? hehe...Think of your good points ba, hopefully will cover up your bad points.
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