Monday, August 2, 2010 @ 8:02 AM
1st Anniversary, 2nd Aug 2010Today is our 1st anniversary. It's rather disappointing for me, but not for you i guess. I was holding on to high hope that i'll recieve at least a flower today. Yes, i recieved, 3 mini glass/plastic rose. Yes, i do appreciate it. But, you said you went looking for sunflower after work but was told that there are only roses left, so you didn't get it because you know i don't like roses. Then why in the first place you got me the plastic roses? It's still rose right? I am disappointed because till today, you didnt know that i dislike fake flower the most. haha...and yes, i doesnt like roses...but sunflower is not the only flower i like, i like tulip too. 2nd reason i am disappointed, why must you wait till the very last min then start looking for flower? It makes me thinks that you did not put in much effort in looking/planning the gift for me. I can tell you, that jigsaw you recieved, i completed almost a month ago. I start planning everything a month ago. Perhaps real flowers are too expensive for you...i understand..but if you really want to give me a fake flowers, you can always hand-made them! Don't know, then learn! that's when i can appreciate your effort. Thats what i mean...You rather spend time sleeping, daydreamning, throwing tantrum...also don't want to spend some time to do something for you gf...Perhaps, majority of the guys are this way... But let me tell you this, girls love surprises. Life without surprises are so mono tone....a music piece must have a mixture of key and pitches too. If not it get bored and listener will sleep!
More reason why i am so gloomy? yesterday failed to get the shoe i want.Because, i know today will be spending a bomb.haha....As usual, i can't feel the sense of security. Today's dinner, When the bills come, i am the one who bills it. Doesn't look nice...i want others to be envy of me. Having a capable and doting bf. A year had past...i can take it. So another month should not be a problem too..hopfully you can really get your pay...I am not blaming you or loking down on you. Definately not. I just can't feel the sense of security....like i said, i feel more like a "bf" at times...Yes, you wanted to pay me for the dinner, but on the other hand, your still owe me money! hahaha...taking money from you now isn't that the same as taking my own money? hahaha...
I wanted to withdraw money for you, i know that you doesn't have pay this month. So i asked you how you survived this few weeks, you didn't say anything much...but after awhile you said you just borrowed $150 from you day. You tell me, with this, how you want me to let you pay for the dinner? It's not right to borrow money for dating! If we can afford, we go for something good, if not, something simple. Not to that extend you need to borrow money...When people lends you money, it's for serious matter, not for leisure or fun...
Overall, disappointed.Anniversary is just another outing. But it's okie..it's over. Hope next year will at least have a little surprise? Doesn't need a big,grand 1...just a small 1 can make a big different!
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