Thursday, September 30, 2010 @ 6:45 AM
It has been a month since my last entry. I'm busy with my work and training for my IPPT. Got a silver and aiming or a gold. Throughout this month, we went batam and genting, back to back trip....5days in total. We had a great time although i had stomach flu in genting and went for injection. Was pretty disappoint/angry with you in genting. Before dinner, i told you to pay for it, to give my sister and brother in law(s) a treat as all along they has been paying and now that both of us are working, we should take turns to pay too. I asked you to settle the bill and i'll return you the money as i know this month is your first pay, and has limited money left after clearing your debts. I understand. But after dinner, when the bill comes, you slowly take out your wallet....hesitate to settle the bill...by the time you finish hesitating, they already settled the bill. Why can't you be a little bit faster and insist on settling the bill? I know you've already paid for the movie tickets, but this dinner, i already told you i'll return you the money. I just want you to look good,generous in front of my family....i am creating chance for you to create a better image in my family. I guess you knew i was angry about this issue....so next morning your action was slightly faster and yea, you settled the bill and i returned you the money on the bus. You look generous without paying a single cent....ok right? I am not saying that you "niao"...just that i hope you can be a little more like wee lee and shawn, really settle the bill willingly and not for the sake of settling. You plan to give my family a treat hopfully not because elsa and shawn supported you with policy? As for me, i gave your family a treat simply because i treat them like my family. You're just started work, just came back from genting, and you're going genting with your family end of next month. hahhaa..perhaps it's with your family that's why you wanna go. To me, i rather save up the money for my future as i just started work, should not spend too much on leisure...in addition we just came back from genting. 1 trip, at least $300-400. hahhaa...can last you for a month for meals! You always say want to earn money and settle down...but are you really doing it? To me, you still haven settle down...leisure and having fun is still your piority.

We have not quarrel for a month. i through you changed. But these 2 days, you are back to your OLD steven. When i say i doesn't want to tag along to go malaysia as the next day i am working, your "dear" in your message dispear and all became 1 word reply. start all your call and hang call and hang habits, 40-50 plus miss call.....you apologised....and now, you r asking if i am staying your house over the weekend as we are having stall near your house during the weekend and we need to wake up early. And start changing dinner venue for saturday...trying to irritate me? decided on ichiban...then now change yaki yuki,pizza hut, Jb....

Dear, i wanna believe you changed. but see for yourself...haiz....
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Thursday, August 26, 2010 @ 3:15 AM
I am feeling super moody,disappointed......it's the worse feeling ever. I trained so hard and can't take part in IPPT just because of ankle sprain last thursday. My mind is completely blank now. Every morning when i wakes up, i just hope to to see my ankle recovered. Perhaps pressure from my superio plays a part too. I need to clear my IPPT by sept 2010, if not my career will be affected. I guess you can't take my moody mood further, you finally speak up. ha, but dear...you are not the only one who said that i am moody..i admit i am, sorry to affect you as well. Will try my best to cheer myself up.

Congratulation dear, you hit your target this month and won yourself a trip to batam. I introduced elsa and thiong yam to get your policy, for most of the meet up with them, i turned up. Seriously at times i felt tired, especially after work. I helped you with a good start up, hope you can continue to do well in your career.
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Saturday, August 14, 2010 @ 2:27 AM
*shiver* cold~ in your aircon bedroom right now. Had a small arguement on the way back from kim moh market. Same old things, you're sensitive, can accept small little comments of others. But compared to last time, our quarrel indeed lesser yea? Because you work ba...no longer bored. But, haiz........you looked stressed..so am i..trying my best to push my friends to you. Nothing much to blog this week, seems to be quite peaceful? Hope it goes on.....i enjoyed every weekends with you. Meeting less, makes me treasure you more. cold~cold!!!! *ah chew!*
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Monday, August 2, 2010 @ 8:02 AM
Today is our 1st anniversary. It's rather disappointing for me, but not for you i guess. I was holding on to high hope that i'll recieve at least a flower today. Yes, i recieved, 3 mini glass/plastic rose. Yes, i do appreciate it. But, you said you went looking for sunflower after work but was told that there are only roses left, so you didn't get it because you know i don't like roses. Then why in the first place you got me the plastic roses? It's still rose right? I am disappointed because till today, you didnt know that i dislike fake flower the most. haha...and yes, i doesnt like roses...but sunflower is not the only flower i like, i like tulip too. 2nd reason i am disappointed, why must you wait till the very last min then start looking for flower? It makes me thinks that you did not put in much effort in looking/planning the gift for me. I can tell you, that jigsaw you recieved, i completed almost a month ago. I start planning everything a month ago. Perhaps real flowers are too expensive for you...i understand..but if you really want to give me a fake flowers, you can always hand-made them! Don't know, then learn! that's when i can appreciate your effort. Thats what i mean...You rather spend time sleeping, daydreamning, throwing tantrum...also don't want to spend some time to do something for you gf...Perhaps, majority of the guys are this way... But let me tell you this, girls love surprises. Life without surprises are so mono tone....a music piece must have a mixture of key and pitches too. If not it get bored and listener will sleep!

More reason why i am so gloomy? yesterday failed to get the shoe i want.Because, i know today will be spending a bomb.haha....As usual, i can't feel the sense of security. Today's dinner, When the bills come, i am the one who bills it. Doesn't look nice...i want others to be envy of me. Having a capable and doting bf. A year had past...i can take it. So another month should not be a problem too..hopfully you can really get your pay...I am not blaming you or loking down on you. Definately not. I just can't feel the sense of security....like i said, i feel more like a "bf" at times...Yes, you wanted to pay me for the dinner, but on the other hand, your still owe me money! hahaha...taking money from you now isn't that the same as taking my own money? hahaha...

I wanted to withdraw money for you, i know that you doesn't have pay this month. So i asked you how you survived this few weeks, you didn't say anything much...but after awhile you said you just borrowed $150 from you day. You tell me, with this, how you want me to let you pay for the dinner? It's not right to borrow money for dating! If we can afford, we go for something good, if not, something simple. Not to that extend you need to borrow money...When people lends you money, it's for serious matter, not for leisure or fun...

Overall, disappointed.Anniversary is just another outing. But it's okie..it's over. Hope next year will at least have a little surprise? Doesn't need a big,grand 1...just a small 1 can make a big different!
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Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 6:31 AM
You're building up your career right now. I really hope that you can do well. Because i am really tired of playing the role of a BF...i feel really insecured. Driving you around, pay for meals and entertainment.....this and that. I admit, i really feel that you are useless at times. At the age of 26...don't even have a few hundred dollar and need to borrow money to pay your last sem school's fees? haiz......I really can't see our future now. Not planning too far, just look at now, every outing,every meals we take...we got to consider our financial.

Next week will be our 1st year anniversary. You decided to go National Museum for dinner. It looks like fine dining and i guess it will be over a hundred dollar? hahaa..I completed a transparent micky and minnie jigsaw before i went into BMT. I just got it framed up 2 days ago. Look special.. after all it's partially handmade, so is the thought that counts. I plan to put it in the car boot on 2nd, after dinner we will drive to take a walk and ask you to help me get something from the boot. When you open up, you will see the present! Eric was telling me that i can put some balloons, so that when you open up, the balloon will fly up. I wanted to do it, but firstly, money restriction. Secondly, don't you think that, that is what you should do on me instead of i doing it to you? It should be the job of a guy! BALLOONSS!!! it's more for girls ba. I thought of baking a cake too, go for baking class. But money constraint again. Haiz..

I don't blame you for not giving me surprises. I chose to believe it's due to money constraint. I understand. But at times, surprise not necessary need much money. It's the thought that counts. For example, last saturday, we actually planned to make breakfast together, but because we went mahjong, the plan was called off. I stayed over at your place, you woke up at 11 plus and you said you "forced" yourself to sleep just because you saw me sleeping too. Can't you prepare lunch for me and i can be surprised or feel fortunate when i wakes up? It definately makes my day much brighter. When you are free on friday night, instead of arguing with me because of boredom,thinking of where to go and thinking of how bored you can be, can't you think of what you can do as a gift for me? handmade stuff like what ming huat and eric does? Surprise your gf by picking up her after work or outing? This kind of surprise is small but it definately makes me feel fortunate to have such a sweet bf. I am not comparing...you have your good points too.

To sum up this entry and also to remind myself, For everything i do, i do it willingly and shall not ask for any return. So long as you are happy, i am fine. Loving someone, you want him or her to be happy right? hehe...Think of your good points ba, hopefully will cover up your bad points.
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@ 5:43 AM
It has been quite awhile since my last entry. I was away for BMT. My birthday surprise for you was a success. I can really see that you enjoyed yourself. My first book out, i spent with my mum and godmum.

On 16th, i booked out. It was a surprise book out. Initially we are suppose to book out only on saturday afternoon. End up, i booked out on Friday! The feeling was really shiok! This is a first sign that the surprise will be smooth! hehehe.....

16th night i went mahjong till 5am and went over to shawn's company to collect your present with elsa, went breakfast, got changed and went over to your place. When i arrived, you were in your room. The moment i walked in and you saw me, i can really see and feel that you are surprised.

After which, we went ichiban for sushi, follow by garden festival and dinner at Tung lok @ orchard parade hotel. After which, i arranged another surprise meeting with jielun and Gang. I stayed over at your place and we went big walk the following day.






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Tuesday, June 29, 2010 @ 3:22 PM
Said,Agreed/promised, forgotten. A few days ago we agreed to have our 11th anniversary dinner at lai wah restaurant. You agreed. A few days later, your mood wasn't very good and brought up the meeting issue again and made things difficult. You changed the anniversary dinner to changi airport TCC and make things even worse by going for a midnight movie at vivo, knowing that i am not driving. Can't you come up with a better plan that suits all? From our conversation, i can see that you are just forcing me to a dead end and hoping that i will surrender and drive. Puzzle why i don't drive recently? A few reasons. 1st, it's money issue. 2nd, i don't want you to take the car for granted, keep relying on the car. Having a car, we will be going out till late, going here and there. 3rd reason, i really don't wish to reach home so late everytime we go out. Once in a while i am ok, but majority time, when i drive, we will end up going till midnight on weekends. I just wanna be home at about 12 to rest, to accompany my mum a little. Last friday i gave my mum's cooking a miss and went out with you. Weekend i stayed over. This week, friday i the dinner another miss because its our anniversary. You said "don't scare la, wun ask you stay over." in the end? what did you suggest? "stay over at my place and catch the first train." I don't understand why we got to go changi TCC? because it's near your house? why not choose 1 that is near my house then? argh.......You can really really be a super irritating person!

Next will be your birthday and our anniversary. Right here, i am declaring. I lied. 1st i told you that my mdm said that nobody is allowed to sent us to the ferry terminal, i am lying. Because i am afraid that there will be briefing and they will say "no confinement for ladies" and there goes my surprise. 2nd, my first book out will be on the 10th. not 21st. My bmt will end on the 21st and not Aug. Its only 2 weeks. hahaha! Why did i lie? i am planning to surprise you on your birthday at your place. hopefully you will be home!
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